Alcohol ! Is it time to cut off ?

Is it time to completely cut off alcohol? 36 M Alcohol has been on my immediate family since young. Family would party in one room and kids would be in another room. Started drinking at 16 absolutely hammered .

Fast forward , I don’t drink often but when I do it’s until I’m wasted or sloth . I don’t think I know my limit or know how .

Since 16 , I’ve had about 6 or more bad alcohol experience where I’m wasted and if I get upset during state and all hell goes out the window. I’ve had bad arguments with family members, friends and recently with step brother whom we haven’t seen each yet in years.

I guess I’m the friend who can’t control there alcohol. I’m at a point where I don’t know if I should just cut it all at once forever or go for sometime or try to limit. I’ve recognized I’ve hurt people emotionally and physically based off this. I’m not a bad person and I hate how I come off at times. Embarrassed to be that guy who cut alc bc he can’t handle it. Haven’t gone to any aa , or counseling . If I do cut off every party gathering always has my family and friends drinking

Here to vent and ask for help bc it’s embarrassing/hurtful and I’m lost. Any feedback is sooooo appreciated.