I don’t wanna drink, I just don’t wanna go home

I’m out on the street, but all I wanted is to go home. I currently live with my dad and my stepmother but, even though they’re nothing but nice to me, I feel ashamed of getting back home after I had drunk.

I’m now waiting for them to fall asleep so I could get in without bothering them.

I do have alcohol issues and I’m looking for help, so please, listen to me. I have taken the first shot, my bad, but I don’t want to drink anymore. I just want to go home and get some rest. But how could I face my dad and my stepmother?

I know it sounds dull, but it is a real big deal to me.