How do I enjoy alcohol more? (In a responsible way)

Ever since I started dating this one girl she kind of ruined alcohol for me. She was a little bit older than me but she used to go out to the bars and get super drunk with her friends. This is when we were 17-18. I would get super nervous about her doing something “stupid” while drunk. Maybe I was jealous of her, who knows?

Once we were at a party and she doesn’t know how to drink responsibly or pace herself and she got super drunk; probably the drunkest person at this party of 70~ people. We ended up having to leave early that night because she basically couldn’t function. This was when I lived with my parents and she ended up waking up my parents because of how drunk she was, she wouldn’t stop crying and being loud.

I also always thought it was very childish and corny when teenagers would “party” drunk as I like to call it. Maybe I’m a Debby downer lol

I want to enjoy alcohol more and when I’m with a group of buddies but I think she ruined it for me or maybe I subconsciously ruined it for myself.

Is there something I can tell myself or do to enjoy alcohol more? (In a responsible way of course)