I don’t know what to do

I am a high functioning alcoholic Hello, for context i am an 20 y/o tall male. I drink around 14 beers on a normal night and up to 30 drinks when i go out, i go out 2 nights a week and I have been for around 4 years now. I know I have problem but I am in good physical shape doing boxing multiple times a week and running daily. I am also a business stundet at a good dutch university and top of my class always scoring between 80-100%. I never study and go to exams that i find “easy” drunk and still have no problems. I take ketamine alot and anything else i get my hands on. I grew up in a bad environment and around the wrong people but have since moved away. I get told alot that i need help and get judged but i dont see a problem as long as i keep up good grades in uni and keep working. (I am bar tender at a bar and work 3 days a week). I am basically set for life due to investments and property i have as long as I don’t blow my money but I still see no reason to live past 40. I don’t want any suicide line or AA links, I would just like to know what other people think about my situation that I can decide on my own what to do, again I know I have a problem but I don’t care if I die from it and I don’t care if I live, I have no ambitions, I am emotionally numb. I got in a car drunk when I was 17 with the goal to never get out but didn’t drive fast enough, my family sent me to rehab but it didn’t change anything, after moving away I haven’t felt a single emotion but don’t think I would try again.