Gotta love alcohol.

I have little to none hope for my future as since a child battling with my mental health has been a battle that I’m always losing. I’m 20 in a few months and live a life of waking up to sleep and see each date pass by with no improvement. I can’t work due to my debilitating anxiety and unpredictability. Inpatient psych wards and care placements have been nothing but traumatic and added to my list of reasons why the world is a cold place. I firmly believe that this life is not for everybody, and I mean that in a self acceptance way and not a “death is the only option” way. I’ve been medicated up to the eyeballs but nothing has every comforted me like alcohol and substances. Although controversial, I do believe I would not be here if it was down to the mental health professionals. That’s not the case for everybody and I whole heartedly believe everyone struggling should reach out and discover their treatment options. But for me, someone who rarely leaves the place they live and do everything to avoid the weight of existing I can say that without being intoxicated I would rather not be here. I’ve been advised with rehab and have had addiction counselling. But I battle my battles with the armour that works for me. Peace everyone ✌️