why does AA make me feel like i don’t have a problem

i’m one of those people who as long as i don’t touch alcohol, im fine. but once i DO it’s not stopped until i wake up with no recollection, and drink again the next day at 7am till i pass out again. i will find any way to make money to go drink with friends because im addicted to the ambiance and the warm feeling i get of “having fun”. i think im partly just as addicted to that as whatever alcohol does to my brain. but regardless its always on my mind. so i assume its an issue.

but because i CAN take a day or a few off, and i don’t CONTINUOUSLY drink..i don’t relate to others in the meetings. so when i come to the meetings and hear people say they just drank 24/7 and would do ANYTHING to drink..it somehow convinces me im not that bad? which is obviously dangerous for someone trying to be sober and healthy.

should i just not go?