first time drinking

Just a little bit of context before I ask a few questions…

I never drank because I’ve held myself to the Christian values when I’m mainly ‘lukewarm’, my whole family is Christians too (and they have drunk alcohol but nevertheless, I always felt close when I was younger to the Christian faith and I guess growing up in a Christian household had wired my brain to think “alcohol = bad, ur disgusting” (same going to towards the concept of sex outside of marriage).

I always wanted to try alcohol but im sooo scared of losing my innocence (if that makes sense), i always liked saying “oh yeah, i never tried alcohol before” (ego things??)

my question is does being drunk reveal your “true self”? I’ve always been curious of this because I keep a lot of things to myself and bottled what I always wanted to say.

and how do I overcome the negative stigma of alcohol that I grew up around?

I’m also scared of drunk driving, I don’t have my license yet but I’ve heard of cases like drunk driving ad just feel scared about it.

I also think because I bottle feelings like anger to stay calm for my own sanity that being drunk would make me lash out and ruin relationships that I have.

sorry if this post doesnt make sense, im 18 and new to all this