Keep breaking things while drunk

Everytime I get drunk it’s always the same thing I start by having a few shots to loosen up hanging out with friends I think “let’s boost the way im feeling” I take a few more shots to the point where I don’t feel good I just feel nothing. At this point is where I break things. About a month ago got drunk and broke my toilet thankfully I had a friend over to shot off the water before I flooded the place, and now 2 days I drank tried riding my e-scooter home (so I didn’t have to drive drunk) and I crashed and broke my leg now im sitting here for the next 6 weeks according to the doctor unable to care for myself, it hurts to move it at all. wish I didn’t drink yet my body still craves that feeling of numbness everyone once in awhile, it’s the feeling I can’t get on weed anymore.