Permanent anxiety

Ultimatly i don’t feel the same. It started an christmas when i had the worst comedown ever and i started to drink and i passed 2 days on beer and clonazepam. The next day i woke to a whopping anxiety. I now drink a liter of wine everytime my shift ends and work is done for 2 weeks now and literally i feel my ego died. I’ve lost my personallity, i rage quit for the stupidest reasons and i feel anxious and depressed everyday until i kiss the bottle in late afternoon. I don’t shake or hallucinate, it simply feels like a molly comedown, but with feeling energized and panicky instead of sleepy and unmotivated. Its that the begining off alcoholism or molly gave me permanent anxiety?