Some questions google doesn’t offer

What are the BAC tolerences that cause the spins while laying down? Why do some people do stupid shit and blame their decisions on alcohol while for the most part I can keep secrets and avoid most dumb decisions while drunk For me being drunk makes me say things from the past that cause awkward feelings the next day but I’m always sober enough to keep the dark ones inside. I lose the ability to know the difference between social ques. Stop saying this, don’t share that and even myself checking if I should share something and I’ll Share it anyway.

At what BAC does most of this happen and would a breathalyzer be accurate enough to record these feelings with. At a certain BAC I crave more than. The first 1 or 2 drinks. At another even though drunk I’ll say now that’s enough. Because of experience, it’s strong enough to say I know when I’m in fear of feeling sick or too drunk to lay down without spinning. In those cases I regret it all and have to sit up until I pass out. If too drunk to the point off falling aeep I’ll always wake up in 4 or 5 hours and feel more unstable and f*ed up than before. Usually at 2-3am I always regret it more and more but still crave it. I really don’t want to anymore but the cravings are too strong for me to handle or maybe I just lack dicipline. I have no physical dependence. It really is a hindering my quality of life. I want to do fine without it. It feels like it fixes my emotions over things I cannot accept but once I’m away from it those feelings are exacerbated worse than ever to the point of for the sake of keeping me out …. some special help… How do I build the strength to quit? I don’t trust super involved helped. I cannot risk anything for it. I really want to get back into the gym