Is drinking during the day a bad sing

So it’s just about 15:10 over here in Finland. To put it simply I was shamefully late to a class because I had stomach problems. The stomach problems continued and my ADHD OCD anxiety ass decided “Fuck this” and I decided to go home and email the teacher about stomach problems. Mainly because I felt like a fucking failure and was so fucking mad at myself.

So I got home and and I just to numb the pain drank one Desilitre of 40 % vodka. I then googled about it and found out it’s bad. Should I tell my “school psychiatrist” or whatever the fuck it is about this.

I feel so fucking relaxed. My mind is finally quiet. This feels like heaven. Holy shit no wonder Finland is the happiest country. Because all the sad folks would just kill themselves if it wasn’t for alcohol.

I’m 21 and 80kg btwv(5’3 in heigh SMALL POWER). For some reason my gut feeling told me I should tell it. Like I know this is fucking stupid. But like Aristotle said. “All I know is that I know nothing”

It feels so fucking good. Finally no more anxiety