Throwing back a 5th

Heyyyyyy. What’s up reddit. I recently relasped after 8mo of sobriety lol. I’m 22F and I’ve been on like a month long bender, I know, I’m really dumb. But I drank from 18-21 very very heavily, I could throw back vodka with no face or barely even needing a chaser, just my vape lol. But now I require a thick drink before and after taking a shot. And my stomach hurts so bad for a couple minutes, and the smell of vodka makes me want to gag and puke. But I used to be able to drink to no end in retrospect not that long ago even though the 8mo of sobriety I was able to clear a court case, rebuild relationships, get up to date on my car bills and everything else, even was able to be employed again. Now I just am confused as to why it hurts so bad when in the beginning of this year I was able to drink a 5th a day to just function. I may be dumb but I genuinely cant figure out why it physically hurts now. Anyway, cheers, I will take another (painful) shot now.