Thought I almost just died

I read so much on Reddit that I know I’m not alone, but extreme health anxiety guy over here. I’ve never passed out, but feel like it a lot of the time my neck is so tense it’s getting pushed down, breathing is weird and run out of breath just whispering, can’t go to sleep for a couple days, body is definitely in fight or flight. Just been bedridden.

Then you look up symptoms and the first thing is go to the hospital, heart attack, then ask it again oh you’re dehydrated and sleep deprived it’s just a panic attack. Last few times I went for heart, it was just a panic attack and some slight alcohol withdrawal. Hard to know exactly what is all going on, then…

Drink alcohol and takes just about all the symptoms away. I see how people can get so hooked on this stuff. I tried so many times to lay there curl up next day and pray it out to Jesus Christ / God then just doesn’t get better, back on the train.

At the end of the day, I know God can answer prayers and I will get through this, no more hospital scares or anxiety. Have you been in a situation like this? What has helped you? A few weeks ago I was drinking a bottle of vodka a day then tapered off for 3-4 days after when I thought I was dying in the hospital again but then tapered off and anxiety was all gone after a few days with little panic attacks here and there. So it can be possible.