Alterations to avoid drinking anxiety

Hi! I posted like earlier today (its 1am now but basically today) about drinking and having panic attack bc of it. It went away! However. Here is the next night, I am like maybe 5 or 6 shots deep. I obviously ignored any lesson mrant to be learned haha. But I did some mitigation things that hopefully will work! I have ibuprofen, sodium, and potassium by my area with water. I ate carbs like 1 hr ago mid drinks fest. I have an ice pack. And blankets. And music. I took b complex. I drank more water. And i cut myself off successfully at 5 or 6 shots (whatever my free pour came out to) instead of 10-14 in like 6 hrs 😎 feeling okay! I did it bc of anxiety and also its apparently better for your hippocampus. I don’t think I have a problem bc i do this for fun. The only thing is, I was arguing with my sister and brother and I blocked them, but to be fair they were wrong not me. And I just drank less bc i dont like feeling anxious. But am I wrong? Because i feel like, if you keep hanging up on someone and then they call u back annoyed, you calling them “crazy” for not liking being hanged up on bc they thingk ur “annoying” is fucking rude. So yes i blocked her. Bye what even is that. Anyways if this is received poorly bc im actually irritating and don’t personally feel that way I will just delete it. Blesss twins!