i’m starting to think i’m an alcoholic lol

(plz tell me if this post fits a better subreddit i’m kinda new)

it has been a year since i’m really drinking (before it would only be at parties) and i’m seriously scared that i’m an alcoholic lol

i bought a 70cl (23.3 fl oz for the us folks (idek if i wrote it right) bottle of vodka and finished it in under a month. in 2025, i would drink every thursday night or so until wasted and did this to relax and have fun. i’ve made awesome memories of drinking by myself and at the club and i’m moving abroad next year so my liver is going to suffer i guess lol

the thing is i’ve always joked about liking alcohol and felt the best when drinking. but now i’m not so laughing anymore.

i last drank on thursday the 16th when going to the club. then, i went on holidays with my family for a week (my parents don’t know anything about it). caught myself thinking about alcohol many times but laughed it off. we came back on the 26th and already i felt a bit empty. we’re on the 29th and i’m feeling fucking mad about it.

i have a comfort show where people drink and have always liked it, and i literally felt like i had no choice to watch it to get better. watching them drink made me feel better, but now i want to drink soooo much it’s crazy.

by the end of that post, i don’t even think i’m still hesitating on the question, i feel like i really have a problem hahah. i guess all i can say is, oops! i’ve ruined my life 🙂

anyways, feedback would help thanks y’all 🙏🏻