Advice re Tasty Alcohol

I don’t drink much. When I do, I drink lemon drop martinis. And I drink them fast. I drink to get drunk. But again, it’s not often.

When with business associates (when I worked) I drank McCallans. Just to look like I knew what I was doing. I hated it. Tasted like gasoline.

I’m now a chronic pain patient. I’ve been in debilitating pain for 30 years. But was medicated for at least the first 24. Now its been 6 years with no medication. My pain management doctors ripped me off my Methadone treatment with no titration and no alternative meds.

I just can’t deal anymore. So I’m now turning to alcohol in hopes it will provide me some pain relief. But what can I drink? I hate beer and wine, and the hard liquor I’ve tried burns like gasoline.

What is out there in the market that I can drink that doesn’t taste terrible and I don’t have to drink too much of to find some relief?

I’ve tried wine coolers before, and they taste good, but I have to drink too many for them to have any effect (and it’s not a strong enough effect to relieve my pain; they just make me sloppy).

Suggestions? Please? There are no bad answers.

Any help is much appreciated.