I drank for the first tim today

Hi I think I’m
Still drunk I had like 12 shots before I felt something I’m a pretty big and tall guy anyways it was fun at first and I was kinda unhinged and funny but after that when we went out yk with me and my friends I started crying and running away from my friends and I felt suicidal and I just bawled my eyes out and kept screaming I wanna kms and this persisted for the next hour of me just crying is this normal and also I’m never ever getting drunk again this sucksssssss