I got arrested on Friday night for drink driving

I made the stupidest decision ever to get in my vehicle after having too much to drink, after 5 minutes in the car I thought wow I’m actually pretty buzzed so pulled over immediately. A member of the public, a “witness” as they put it heard me on the phone outside my vehicle saying “I have been drink driving I need you to pick me up”. The police turned up and I was arrested and spent 14 hours in a cell and have a court date coming up in 2 weeks where I will be banned from driving my solicitor said for a minimum of 1.5 years. Luckily no one was hurt and this is the biggest lesson I have ever had in my life as well as the biggest mistake I have ever made.

I know the next few years are going to be tough but please does anyone have any advise on how to get through the emotional and mental side of this all as I cannot seem to move on from it. It is only day 3 and all I do is cry and cry. The shame and disappointed I feel in myself is so overwhelming I have no idea how to break it. I can’t believe I put myself in a position like this as I have never had a criminal record & never even a run in with police. I know in the long run this could be a blessing as I can really self reflect on the way I see alcohol but I just can’t see an end to the tunnel. I don’t even want to leave my house. A police car pulled up on my road to let my partner know what happened so everyone knows something is up. I feel every stranger in the street who looks at me knows exactly what has happened. I took today as a day holiday with work as know colleagues will eventually find out when I cannot drive to work but luckily I have 2 weeks to get my head around that. Part of me thinks I should have gone in as it’s a distraction and I cannot let this interfere aspects of my life but knowing everyone is full of how was your weekends etc on Mondays I just can’t bare it. Now I’m home alone with the thoughts and not sure I made the right decision.

I by no means excuse what I did and fully ready to face the consequences but I’m just struggling to accept mentally and emotionally what I have done. I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself.. the only thing that gets me through is knowing it could have been a lot worse and I could have harmed another being, animal, someone’s property the list is endless 🙁