15 beers per night

I’m 26, I started drinking at 16. And hated it at first. But quickly started experimenting with harder drugs like mdma cocaine and oxy. I got heavy into mdma. At 17 my friends gave me kind of an intervention. I could barely talk I was so brain fried. I didn’t stop and ended up going to rehab at 18. I was sober for a year. I’d watched half of my family die from alcoholism. (Liver and kidney failure). I’ve been drinking everyday for 8 years now. Only exception is if I’m very sick. I feel like I’m stuck and it’s just getting worse. I’m also mixing Percocet with vodka and cocaine 3-4 times a week. I feel exhausted 24/7. I’m wondering if I’m really dying. My eyes are always bloodshot and I sweat and overheat for no reason. I have huge bags under my eyes.