OCD

does anyone else get symptoms of OCD, intrusive and impulsive thoughts when their hungover or drunk?

i have repeating thoughts internally, also have to keep continuing a habit or feel bullied by my head i dont know if it’s because of real mental illness or the alcohol, but even i don’t drink i still go from strong vulnerable, sensitivity to apathy and arrogance so that’s why i sounded very bipolar my father had drank everyday for years, my mother was a pill popper and my family treated me like i was a boring, annoying person who they got tired of raising, lots of trauma from relationships and it’s that i just have these reasonable excuses to keep drinking every day, i wish i could just stop because i still have hope