I seriously just like boozing and it’s getting fucked up

I’m not an alcoholic. However I am the most down to drink booze. For example if my friends want to drink I’m there. I think this may be bad because now I do a good amount of coke and i don’t think it’s good for me. I hope Reddit can tell me there opinions because I am too drunk right now. What I need help with is understanding why I love drinking alcohol even in bad situations and how I can handle my thanksgiving lunch tomorrow with my extended family. This is pretty fucked up because I’m super fucked uo and lunch is at 1 30 pm aka in 4 hour 20 min. Help.