Hi Guys, I Want to Quit but Can’t

Hey everyone, I hope you’re all well. Basically, I went to rehab a couple years ago and was doing well for a bit. I relapsed, and the past few months I’ve been drinking close to a fifth of vodka a night. I wasn’t able to get a hold of any and suffered severe withdrawals yesterday, finally got some today and feel a million times better. I can’t keep up like this though, and I’d love to quit. I can’t afford rehab or a nice detox program, so I’m asking if any of you guys are informed at what the best taper/weaning route would be for someone at my level. Thank you so much!

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