I just love alcohol too much. I don’t want to become an alcoholic.

Alcoholism runs in my family. I am in my early 20s and just LOVE alcohol a lot. It’s so easy to get and the world just look like a much more fun and happy place. I am not happy–the world is.There are no limits and everything is interesting. So far I had 5 episodes where I got drunk when I started drinking a few months, but I already feel psychologically but not yet physically attached. I never got blackout drunk; a few drinks is enough to feel completely different.

Like I don’t know what to do to be fully content sober. I feel lost. People say you gotta work hard to be content, but I don’t even know where to put that work to solve my problems. What direction do I even go to? I am sure people here older and wiser than me can help me.

I am drunk now, by the way, and, as I said about never being blackout drunk, neither am I too drunk now.