Admitting I have an alcohol problem

27/F. Been drinking roughly every night for id say around 9 months due to depression and just plain boredom// taking little breaks here and there. I was drinking perfectly fine with my habits and then a month ago I noticed I was sweating by the time I would usually drink. Went through a minor withdrawal when I stopped for three days before thanksgiving. Idk why I can’t just be like a normal person. I want to seek AA meetings but I’m so embarrassed and ashamed of myself.