I’m physically & mentally breaking down. I cannot stop drinking or even slow down. I have had panic attacks for days & tremors close to convulsions when I go more than 8 hrs without drinking. I’ve obviously been missing work. All I do is cry & attempt to distract myself with media. It’s not working. I don’t want to have to go into some inpatient facility but I’m honestly terrified I’ll die from the withdrawals if I quit at home.