rant abt not having a lot of experience with alcohol

for context, i just turned 18 and i sort of feel like im the odd one out when it comes to ppl my age :/

in my country, its quite normal for teens to start drinking at around 15. i never really had a solid friend group so i didnt get to experience that at the same time as my peers. i wasnt popular and didnt know anyone to buy for me either. id say one of my first proper times drinking was at my boyfriends birthday this summer. i feel like i drank a moderate amount but i didnt even feel anything. i thought it was a fun experience although my boyfriend got pretty drunk lol. thats something that puzzles me tho, that i never feel anything. im a bit of a slow drinker, but surely the amount should make up for it, yes?

anyways, i was at a halloween party last week. and my boyfriend and i brought our own booze. he didnt drink since he was driving, so i did on my own. again, i didnt feel anything. i dont only want to rant about not feeling the effects, but this weird feeling that sometimes people are kind of arrogant when it comes to alcohol? i spent quite some time at the party with the girl who was hosting. and she often came with comments like, “why are you drinking it like that, why arent you mixing it?” or “why arent you doing it like this instead?”. i know its not a big deal, but it just kind of put me off and embarrassed me. i havent seen anyone talk about this which is why i wanted to make this post. i feel this a lot. no one really teaches you about drinking or what to do. as i mentioned, i havent experienced drinking with friends before so it wasnt something i could figure out of alongside others. i also remember at my boyfriends birthday i was going to take, i think, my first shot. i was very nervous and asked out loud “what if i throw up?”. his sister came around the corner and told me i wasnt going to throw up, and if i was so scared i could take the shot in the toilet. she had a very direct tone and i didnt know what to say. i mean, who wants to take a shot in the toilet? i tried to brush it off and just took the shot. she came back and said “that wasnt so bad, now was it?”. i just felt like that was so condescending, and that i should be allowed to be nervous or scared if i havent drunk a lot in the past. i just feel like when people have knowledge and experience, they feel like theyre above the ones who dont? and that they kind of forget about their first times :/