Does alcohol make anyone else have homosexual desires?

I have been and always will be a straight male. I have never even thought about gay sexual acts, much less participated in them. But recently, I started drinking alcohol.

I was never much of a drinker, never once getting more than a little tipsy from a glass of wine or a bottle of beer. The issues started when I started drinking vodka at parties. At first it was to fit in, but then it became something I enjoyed, and finally something I had to do. In all likelyhood, I am an alcoholic.

In the past few months, I noticed something strange however; every time I get drunk now, I start to think about the men around me at these parties. Sexually. It started with “oh hey that guy looks good shirtless” but it has gotten to the point where I cannot stop thinking about men. About their tough skin, their beer bellies, and their rugged faces.

I once thought that if I was ever gay, I would only be into femboys. But this was the opposite of how things went. I have only thought about big bearded men. Fat ugly bastards who go home and don’t take a shower at night. Musty fuckers who don’t get any pussy and have to hire prostitutes to feel less empty inside.

It has gotten to the point where I cannot focus on anything else when I am drinking, not even when I am sober. I can only think about teasing fat ugly men. Women have started to gross me out when I drink. And when that happens, I only want hard, big men. Not soft skinny broads. I want their funk, I want their stink.

Recently, I went to a party and flirted with this old dusty bald man with a drinking problem. He seemed to take interest in it, but it sort of fizzled out. I was so close to losing my anal virginity to a fat joe biden looking motherfucker.

These thoughts never even cross my mind when I am sober. I am a run of the mill straight man with normal interests and normal desires.

What should I do reddit?