Body drunk, mind sober

Please, I want to get drunk, please, I don’t want to be sober. Please, please, please. How do I achieve it, what do I do? How do I get my mind drunk? I don’t usually want, but now I want to. Please, how to get my mind drunk, how to numb it, how to stop being so self-aware. Please, please, please, please. I want to stop thinking just for a moment, please.