scared i cant handle emotions

(18 M) i’ve never drank before, i was raised around and by alcoholics and i’ve seen the things it has done. I don’t want to live my life in fear but i also don’t want to succumb to it. i want it to be fun for me, but i have this underlying fear that ill be angry or sad when im drunk because i saw how my family got. jm a pretty sensitive person i cant lie, how do i go about easing into something like this, or is it just not for me? I feel like im missing out on something important, i just want to try it at least once to say i did it. has anyone else felt the same way?