You know you are an alcoholic when the first thing you do in the morning after a night of drinking… is drink again

It has to be the biggest irony in my life, but back in 21 I tried to stop booze. Bought a book about how to stop. And there I learned that a few glasses of alc “cure” the hangover of the previous day. I had never done that before bc after a hangover any alc felt repellent.

And here I am, 5 years later, having drank a tad too much yesterday, and drinking again. I felt so low, and now, one beer and one glass of wine in, I feel better already.

Don’t be patronizing please, I know it’s bad for me, but it’s so ironic that what keeps me boozing, I learned in a book to stop…

And there goes the time loop… bc once you start, you get the hangover… and you drink again the next day, what happens on day 3? hangover. And how do you “cure” it? By drinking again in the morning. And there it goes, the cycle, which can last a month or more, of every day getting the fix for the day before.