Been stringing with alcoholism recently

Hello I’m 20 m and I’ve been drinking for about 4-5 years. I’ve always enjoyed drinking a lot but it was never a problem for me before, in January I started having problems with my heart which caused a lot of depression and since February I’ve drank everyday maybe taking 6 days randomly in between at the very most. I hate my life so much I get off work drink 10-15 beers and then sleep for like 3 hours and have to go back to work feeling like shit. On the weekends it’s even worse I’ll drink a fifth of hennesy and like 40-60 beers and can’t stop until it’s gone. I just want to find some happiness in my life I start shaking when I don’t drink now. It’s a blessing I’ve been able to withstand from drinking before work but it’s getting more and more tempting. Thank you for listening to my story I just wanting to vent a little bit I’m drunk right now while writing this I’m always drunk 🙂