when i drink (occasionally) i cannot drink casually.

Recently, I’ve come to terms with the fact that every time I have a drink, I want to drink more and become the level of (normal) drunk as some would say. I’ve gone back and forth with the idea of being an alcoholic many times. One thing in particular I do not find myself categorizing with alcoholics, is I do not find the urge to drink very often. At most, I’ll drink 4 to 5 times a month, but when I do drink, I have the urge to drink until I am hammered. I’m putting this out there because I am curious if anyone else feels this way, and am curious if it maybe it is a sign that there’s a real problem at hand or i’m just the type of person who indulges in their impulses. Redditors let me know.