wanna start drinking

hi ive always wanted to try alcohol but was always too scared to try it, recently my depression has gotten worse and smoking just doesn’t cut it out for me anymore, everyone close to me has advised against it but i really want to try it at least once, my plan is to get beers or soju idk whichever is more accessible for me since alc isn’t that accessible since i live in a muslim country i do also suffer from anxiety so idk if this would worsen it or what

does anyone have any tips on first time trying alcohol alone cuz i dont really have any friends to try it with

ps, i know drinking is bad for you and such but i js really want to escape that sappy feeling overall