How safe would it be to quit alcohol fully Uk

25 y olr female

I’ve been told to taper alcohol by 10%, but I’m struggling and want to hear others’ experiences.

I’ve been drinking since August last year, gradually increasing to about 70 units a week, almost daily. I only started properly tracking recently — my last few weeks were 73 units, then 70, then 63.

I’ve been advised to hold at my current level because I’m getting really unwell when I drop. I’m having shakes at night, sweating, irritability, severe headaches, feeling faint, and constant exhaustion. Right now I’m around 9 units daily (mostly 63% rum doubles).

It feels horrible because trying to quit means I have to keep drinking every day just to avoid withdrawal. Sometimes it feels like I’m just forcing myself to drink before it’s taken away. Part of me wonders if it would be easier to just stop and endure it, even though I’ve already been vomiting and feeling extremely sick.

I keep telling myself I’m strong enough to get through it — I’ve survived serious medical stuff and past substance issues — but I’m starting to worry I might be in denial. I’ve had multiple people warn me about withdrawal risks and it still hasn’t fully sunk in.

Not looking for medical advice, just wondering if others have felt this trapped between tapering vs wanting to just stop, and how it felt for you.

(UK)