Ran out, nothings open, no car, drinking 70% rubbing alcohol w cranberry juice.

I feel pathetic. Its not that bad though. I have a problem where i cannot RUN OUT OF ALCOHOL like if i had it id be just as drunk as fine without even drinking it. Its just the fact that i dont have it. Does that happen to anyone else? Am i going to have issues bc of this? Should i have posted this in an alcoholic sub???@