I’ve drank for almost 4 years straight with about 15 days break in between

It started during Covid and at first it wasn’t a lot. Now it’s at least a 1.14 L ish a day. It used to be at night but I have completely sold the bag on that one. I would like to stop but the damn shakes get me every time and that’s within the first 12 hours I can’t imagine the next week. I am 24 and have frankly blown it pretty bad. I am a server so carrying a plate is ridiculously hard and I always have that feeling that I’m gonna drop it and when I drink I can hold it almost flush, no vibrations. I’m posting in here because of a panic response I guess but I know if I continue down this path my eyes are gonna be yellow real quick. I know I’m past the point of cold turkey but how did you guys taper your drinks down? Because I have a very strong feeling I’m gonna be a DT’s guy and I cannot do that as a server.