Advice on staying calm when sober

Hi,

I would like some advice.

I’m two weeks after relapsing and I am back to the start again. I want to try and commit to being sober this time, but there is something that I screwed up with last time and it’s affecting me now.

I tend to get really frustrated when sober. I try not to let it show but it seems like any little small thing that goes wrong has the capacity to set me off. It was never like that before, even though I had severe anxiety and it felt like for a long time that when I was drinking, it was the only time I was really calm and not angry at the world. But now that I’m trying to be sober again fulltime, it’s like I’m feeling this pressure build up and up again and I don’t want to have to fall on alcohol to try and silence that pressure.

I would greatly appreciate some advice on this? What should I do? How do I keep myself from snapping and feeling that frustration everywhere I go?