Am I different? I don’t think/behave too differently when intoxicated

After perusing this subreddit, I realize what this is very different from what is generally posted here but I wasn’t sure where to post. Lmk if I should post elsewhere.

Its been on my mind, and I dont disagree and alcohol causes impairment, I do feel it in other ways, but I have never felt my behavior or decision making has been majorly impacted by alcohol. I’m goofier, its hard to focus and control my limbs, but I also dont take risks. I dont feel more social, my social anxiety affects me the same, not worse or better.

Its just that my peers behave SO differently. I am capable of drinking a sizable amount, I’m a bigger person, but I feel I just get drunker without becoming… stupid? Its possible I just had never drank enough but at this point i feel that if I push it more than usual, I’ll just get sick.

Do people just let it happen/take advantage of drunkenness to act out? Because society expects drunks to be messy so thats a pass to be messy? Is it because amongst my peers, I’m one of the few that refrained from drinking at an early age? Is it simply better self control? I feel a disconnect between me and other drunk ppl sometimes, makes it hard to drunk with people even because its frustrating to me that they behave the way they do, but they also claim they ‘can’t really help it’.