question for alcholics

I’ve been around the ropes a little bit with alcohol. Vodka, Hennessy, twisted tea, everything just feels like a trashy medicine I’m swallowing just to feel sorta inebriated. Plus from what I’ve seen alcohol just makes the people I know complete wastes of time and people who seem like they just don’t give a fuck about anything besides the next time they’re going to get drunk. All I’m trying to really ask is that if I could get into alcohol, would it make me as aggressive as most people I see? Or is it genetic or whatever… And another question what alcohol does not taste like absolute shit? Thank you. Hope this doesn’t seem degrading.