Best drink for first time drinker who wants to feel stress free

Hi all

Seems like a nice community here. Hoping not to be judged.

I want to drink for the first time in my life. A lot has happened and I want to drink so much till I forget who I am and become numb. Price is not really an issue but would rather not waste money.

Also, please don’t leave comments telling me this is a bad idea. I know about the medical consequences of alcohol. I appreciate the concern but this is something I want to do.

Thanks in advance.

-The Good Doc