Update: drinking alcohol to get over my fear

original post: https://www.reddit.com/r/alcohol/s/AFKsttEHH2

Okay so like an hour after posting that I went and bought two 500ml cans of 7% cider which I drank over the course of like an hour and a half in my room. It was kinda weird, I could barely walk, fell off my chair like 3 times and completely lost the ability to type coherently, concerning people I messaged (or attempted to) who also told me I had drank way too much for my first time. I didn’t really like the taste but honestly after the first can the second one was way more acceptable and I drank it a lot quicker than I did the first. One thing I did like though is not being anxious, like I am a very anxious person and not feeling it for a few hours was actually very nice and I’m considering trying again at some point for that reason. Still not sure how I feel about doing this with other people though, the thought of being around others like this still scares me, I mean like I said I could barely even stay on my chair anyone could do anything to me

Anyway that was quite a few hours ago and now i’m lying in bed trying not to throw up lmao