Anxiety after Alcohol – anyone else?

Hi, can anyone relate to this?.

I think it was since Covid that alcohol didn’t feel the same . I used to be able to drink about 12 330 mL bottles of Heineken pretty much most nights and just do a days work afterwards there was no problems and it wasn’t always 12 bottles to be for sometimes less.

Anyway, I had Covid when I was about 49 and since then drinking alcohol has just felt different . I really don’t know if it has anything to do with Covid or not. It just seem to be when things change for me and that’s one of my questions. Did anyone else just have a change of affect in alcohol?

So yes, I could go out drink and be merry be happy and sleep like a baby.

So what’s different? I don’t seem to get any fun element out of drinking and the next day I have very bad anxiety. The kind of anxiety that you would have if you’ve just murdered someone. I get like a knot in my stomach pains and my head runs around with worrying and stupid thoughts. a couple of days later and I feel really good by Friday. I feel amazing and I’m craving alcohol again and I’m back in the vicious circle.

A couple of weeks ago I drank on Friday Saturday, Sunday and Monday and Tuesday of that week I felt suicidal.

I’ve also given up for six months thinking this might reset everything and it didn’t. I still feel the same after drinking.

I know I’m blaming Covid or maybe it’s just age.

Anyone else feel like this? I’m 52 if that matters and I’ve been drinking most nights since I was 18.