I just want to be happy

I have drank yesterday but i also drank today shortly after waking up and am doing so still. But not bc i need alcohol but bc im lonely af. Idk what to do rly. Alcohol lets me suppress my feelings and lwts me feel happy when i do not feel those emotions, like ever.

Idk where to go or how i can achieve happiness all i want is to not feel miserable or sad all the time when im not suppressing my emotions. I can work at my job just fine but afterwards i just feel empty.

Everthings sucks after that point. Loneliness sucks. Fuck.