How can I cope with Binge Drinking? What is Binge Drinking? (And am I doing it)?

Hey all, im a 22 year old college senior with a part time job. I have all A’s and pride myself on doing any task I do with my best effort. Because of this I am very productive, but I drink 2-5 40 oz miller high life’s after work days or to relax. Is this an issue? I genuinely enjoy relaxing and knocking back a few beers while watching a series, playing a game, or reading a book. I get tipsy, but not to the point of stupidity, just to where I feel relaxed and numb to my sensations (I have sensory issues, weed and especially alcohol calm my overstimulation and allow me to engage normally, without paranoia or anxiety). Ever since therapy and new medication, plus lifestyle changes, I have never felt happier than before. But I am just concerned if I am drinking too much (I work 6-8 hours 5x a week for context, to pay rent, bills, groceries, tuition, and other healthcare expenses *totaling to around 2000 a month. I made a chart from this date til I entered college and my rough estimate is around 9,000 standard beers I consumed. This totals to 242 30 pack of 12 oz light beer).

I remember being so drunk off cheap Fosters Lager and Bailey’s Irish Cream playing FF8 Ultimecia boss that I vomited 25% of my room and pissed on my carpet from being so drunk. I later heard my parents that morning talking about how to approach me doing this, and it was so embarrassing and humiliating I decided to never drink liquor, besides special occasions (even then the taste makes me want to vomit).

Whenever I drink, I am mostly calm and subdued, but there have been instances of me driving drunk a short distance to a gas station to buy more alcohol because of impulsivity, as well as aggressive behavior. I am not naturally resentful and angry, but when I am hammered the hate I feel is inconsolable. I also have become more irritable and impulsive to act on desires, whether they be sexual behaviors, drug and alcohol use, or lack of empathy in conversations.

I enjoy the taste of beer (I strictly do not drink liquor besides Irish Coffee, Irish Manhattan, and the occasional rum and coke degen TPB mix), but will tornado 40 ozs to quickly consume a large amount of alcohol (not unlike a fat bong rip).

Please do not give a generic answer like “If you are questioning you should be concerned” as this is literally why I posted this. Im not looking for a diagnosis, just anecdotal experience of other alcoholics or binge drinkers. < this is mainly for the mod team. Speculation ≠ diagnoses.