I’m confused about my drinking

I love alcohol. Acutally prefer it to weed. But EVERYTIME i drink the day after i’m so anxious and am like im not doing this again unless im celebrating with friends or family. I always say i don’t want it anymore. But when the weekend rolls around I cave in and get some bc im bored. I never drink a lot. I never really drink enough to get sick but i always have hangxiety. I wish i could just drink and not feel like i wanna kms the next day.