Always feel depressed any time I consume alcohol in any amount?

This is probably retarded that I’m even asking this here as a grown ass adult. To preface this Im not the biggest drinker and don’t have any substance abuse problem. In general post COVID my alcohol consumption is mostly non existent mainly because the pandemic and remote work sticking around severed my main social setting to go out drinking (after work with co workers or buddies).

It’s just lately I’ve noticed significant effects to my overall shift mood on those now rarer occasions I drink, like a couple hours after even after only drinking a pint or 2 and having a general good time during.

I Mainly get very scatter brained, anxious and depressed feelings. I get alcohol is a depressive and all but it’s just a noticable shift in mood despite not getting any where close to being drunk.

Curious if others experience this a lot especially when consuming relatively small amounts?