Does anyone feel like alcohol is a lie?

I had a great day yesterday and decided to get drunk. Ended up being shitty, texted my fam some mean shit, and woke up today feeling like an asshole/loser. I started out just wanting to have fun but it always ends with dissatisfaction and disappointment. I feel like alcohol is a lie, like it won’t bring me joy and will only bring pain. Anyone feel like this? Drinking for over 10 years. It was fun in the beginning but now in my mid thirties, it’s miserable. Seriously considering quitting.