Quit, love alcohol though

Alcohol is just something I love indulging in. I love seeing it around, having it, and getting drunk.

I used to drink 1-3 times a week, but I’ve quit now as it made me a worse person. I’d lie, steal, do anything really to get some. I would have chosen alcohol over any of my relationships, and honestly, I think I still would. It’s just too risky to get, and I want to try to be better for the person I used to be.

I got an ADHD diagnosis a while ago, and many people with it suffer from substance problems in adolescence. I’ve not drank and will not anymore until I’m an adult so I can at least try to find a better way out of this

I do still miss being shitfaced, though. It feels so nice to just not think, you just do things. your body feels weird to control, you don’t care about the coincoquinces of your actions, you feel the only thing that exists is what you sae right then and there.

I’ve not drank for a few weeks, and I honestly miss how dumbed down I used to feel while I still did. There have been moments I’ve thought I’d actually made permanent serious damage, but those were when I mixed substances

I just wanted to share how much I love alcohol. I can’t drink, but at least I can still share the joy. If alcohol was a person I’d kiss it and then fuck it. But it isn’t, so I’ll wait until I’m 18 and work out or something 😂