Anyone else feels bored when they don’t drink through the day (and especially at night before sleep)?

I’m not here to say I want to stop. I have tried many times over and the thing is it’s not just a “self medication”. I just enjoy the taste, I enjoy losing control, I enjoy feeling like boredom and problems don’t matter anymore, and also I find when slightly drunk music feels better.

Anyone, do you also find life extremely tasteless and boring when you don’t drink throughout the day?

I must say I don’t have that much of a life, I’m currently jobless and it has increased my want to booze quite a lot.