am I an alcoholic? I’m worried about my future. I am a female at a popular SEC school and I’m worried about my future.

I am a female and I’m 18 in college at a very popular SEC school. The first time I got drunk was in 8th grade and it was from a tall strawberita (if you know what that is haha.) It was never a normal habit until I got to highschool. (I went to school in a very small town where it was pretty normalized to drink when you were younger because everyone either worked on a farm, had an alcoholic parent, or both.)I would drink almost every weekend after freshman year, (so sophomore-senior) I could go a week without a drink but would be so excited to have a drink on the weekends. But in highschool this meant hanging out with your friends and socializing so I never saw a problem with it. I am a second semester freshman in college. I never saw an issue with my drinking until this semester. It was all about getting the college experience until I realized I might have a problem.

I’m thinking I may have grown a higher want for alcohol since I would drink 2-4 days a week my first semester. And I’ve also grown a very high tolerance for alcohol which is another thing that concerns me.

This semester is different though. At first I was thinking to myself, “oh it’s not that bad because last semester I would have been plastered on a Tuesday night because I had a reason to be.” So it makes it okay if I have a drink tonight alone because a couple of months ago I would have been trashed at this time.

I never had the urge to drink on weekdays when nothing was going on, but now I do. I crave alcohol almost every night and day. (This has been going on for about two weeks now.) But during Christmas break I was diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed Adderall medication for it. I don’t know if this could be an indication of why this is happening to me or not but I just want to know if I’m alone in this. This only just recently started happening because in highschool I obviously couldn’t drink on school nights, but now that I have all the freedom in the world it’s different.

I don’t nearly go to the bar as much as I used to, it’s mostly drinking alone and feeling the need to hide my drinks from my roommate on school nights that concerns me.

For context my mother is a functioning alcoholic and I was wondering if this could have any impact on my problem as well. Someone please answer with your thoughts. Anything helps!!!

I may be overthinking this situation but I’m concerned about what this could lead to as I go forward.

Also I know my grammar isn’t perfect in this, I just wanted to get out all of the thoughts in my head without any restrictions.